Nuclear Weapon

Not Normal

I dreamt last night that I watched a mushroom cloud rise up above my city. This is the type of dream I would have had in elementary school, when we were taught to hide under our small wooden desks -- the kind with a lid and a compartment underneath which held our books, pencils, papers, … Continue reading Not Normal

Twin toddlers on beach, rachelrenovation

Daddy

My twins look up at Kyle. They have shy smiles and occasionally duck their heads, cast their eyes down and hunch their shoulders, as they flicker between pride and embarrassment. Julia reaches up and gives a gentle tug of Kyle’s dark blue silk tie. Sean shifts his weight from leg to leg. There is so … Continue reading Daddy

Painting of a cell

When It Happened

What was Jim doing when it happened? Was he sleeping? He ran every day...was it on a run? Playing guitar? He'd been sanding the ancient wood floors of our small Oak Park bungalow. Did it happen then? Was he on the Metra train headed to work in Chicago's loop? On the outside, life was normal. … Continue reading When It Happened

snow storm, car in snow, grief

Trust Fall

The snow continues to fall and our window for escaping my in-laws is closing. Cleveland is known for lake effect snow. As freezing air moves across a warm body of water – in this case, Lake Erie – the lower layers of the air pick up the lake’s water vapor. As the vapor rises, it … Continue reading Trust Fall